I went for an interview on Monday at a beauty company but unfortunately, the job offered was not exactly what i applied for. i have no idea why i keep running into such things! so i’m half-heartedly waiting for the person to call to arrange for a 2nd interview, if there is gonna be one.
And today, i got a call from a recruitment agency but she offered me contract jobs instead of the perm role i wanted. reason being i do not have marketing experience and considered a fresh grad. NOW. i’ve heard this a million times from my interviewers but I AM NOT A FRESH GRAD. i have working experience! yes, i do not stay more than a year for every job but are you saying i don’t learn and do anything at all from my jobs? in fact, i had to pick up skills very quickly and i leave every job being if not a master of it, well-trained i would say. yes, i do not have marketing experience but i do have the knowledge and i was in communications all the while so there are overlapping areas that i’m familiar with. i just need a chance to execute it! why do people dismiss all the qualities that i posses? why must they lower my value like that?
My bf always tell me not to let anyone lower your value. they do it because they want you to accept the job with a lower pay. but no, tell them that you are better than what they think you are. if they don’t see your worth now, they will not see it when you get into the job as well and it won’t be good for you. so i’m gonna have this mantra in my head. although there is a very thin line between self confidence and arrogance but i believe i’m not crossing that line. i do admit when i hear things like ‘don’t be choosy, you know the market is very dry now. sometimes it’s not what you want to do but what the market has to offer’, i get demoralised and feel i should just take whatever there is because maybe i’m really not good enough. but i really need to give myself some credit and not discount myself in any way. i have to be patient and stay positive and get the job that i truly want. because i really have no intention to job hop again.
So how do i keep my spirits up while facing these daily rejections? MUSIC. haha. i won’t say i can’t live without music but it really is my spiritual support. when i listen to a good song, i really immerse myself totally and let the song carry me away. esp when there are guitars, drums or synthesisers involved, i really get so engrossed that i lose myself in the music and almost like drugged ( nope, i don’t take drugs) and when i’m out of that trance, i feel so rejuvenated. i think only some people can understand what i’m feeling. haha.
So what kinda songs do i listen to? I LOVE INDIE. i love the quirkiness, random beats and basically the nature /style of the music composition. i like rock too because of the drums and guitars again, and how it really allows you to vent your frustrations and throw out your emotions as you’re rocking to it. and in general, i lean towards songwriters type of artistes. i feel that because they write the songs, they are able to express it better? and i admire their talent, they are my source of inspiration. if you understand chinese, you’d be amazed by how this language expresses emotions and narrates stories the best.
Now let me share my off-the-head muse, with youtube links to a recommended song:
2. 2 Door Cinema Club http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gcmlshqyQ_s
3. Neon Trees http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n2RoA-19Qeo&feature=fvst
4. Damien Rice http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=plIH98Kxu58
5. Wanting http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gPly6sjVaa4
6. Chen Qi Zhen (Cheer Chen) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VaHgEZcFv-Y&feature=fvwrel
7. Wu Yue Tian (Mayday) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qX2GsMj7154&feature=fvwrel